I hate the nights.
My thoughts haunt me best in the darkness. My heart easier to find under the blanket of stars that twinkle and pulsate with the pain i feel. I feel the numbness behind my eyes. The burst of pain in my chest growing and growing licking up the walls of my heart. My tongue swells as I choke on the unspoken words. feelings that are spoken silently burst forth in the space of a breath. My eyes strain in the darkness, struggling to see past the blinding dots that appear beneath my closed lids. I try to catch my breath but the darkness is choking me.
Slowly and silently and only at night.