If you felt like a rapist while fucking me then you should have listened when I said NO
I should’ve known the first time we played that game. You hit my arm, i hit you harder. I usually am the first one that breaks. I couldn’t stop the tears and you would laugh and say I lost. And i let the bruises bloom on my arm, or on my thigh. And you would look at it and smirk.
But then this time, the games weren’t physical anymore. You hurt my feelings and I hurt yours and we got a little satisfaction everytime the other cringes in pain.
only, I break.
Only, I end up in tears.
I should have stopped playing years ago. I knew I would always lose.
This will drive you crazy. He can handle it but you can't. So, stop
He showed you repeatedly that you don't matter. Gahd. Why does he still matter?
You're too fuckn nice. Stop it.
Damned if you do, damned if you don't.
Do this and you will hate yourself longer because you can't say no and the guilt will kill you. Plus, your self respect has been through enough dontcha think?
Do that and you will hate yourself because you dislike not pleasing people but you'll feel better in the long run.
Either way you'll feel bad BUT… the other will help you in the long run.
You deserve better. You've been saying it for years and you know it's true. It's going to be okay.
It's okay to say no.
Remember! What you see on facebook is not what it seems. They will never show how miserable they are.
There was a time when I wanted to be a part of your world.
I listened to your stories.
I shared your dreams.
I dreamed it all with you.
One of these days, I swear, I am going to reach the end of my rope and finally see myself crazy. Crazy not in a good way too. 😐😐😑😶